A poem (with many cute pics of dogs and cats). *clears throat*
My Love… This Isn’t What it Seems this Christmas… so Please?
How do you love me…?
I mean really how?
Sometimes you’ll ask me before answering
And then answer before asking
And I am standing here with eggnog in hand
But egg in my face because this wasn’t the Christmas, I’d planned
I certainly thought by now we’d be holding hand in hand before the gesture
Is greater than the stand I’ve taken
Because my heart can’t be laid bare on coals of care
And ouch, the frigidness of your cold stare is something I truly cannot bare
My heart is hurting when you dismember
Each and every word before hearing my first thought
And yet I stand here again with hand out waiting to gesture
A common care and caricature, with my wide-eyed and lovey-dovey stare
Across a screen because that’s the only place my love can be seen
Oh bother, you spew, and who cares, because I’m insinuating here!
That you really don’t love me
No not at all, not at all I think
Because you missed that text within a full day or so
I’m quite upset that you failed
Yet… again, my fair-weathered girl and friend
Sigh, I considered typing back with all thumbs that I lack
But first I was working and then I was sleeping
And then I was playing a game on my phone
But let’s not split hairs because of a show I had to binge
It was really quite interesting
Perhaps you should watch it when you get the time?
Is it possible the screen is broken?
I see fumes from words unspoken
And so, I dally with saucy and quick repartee, I tell a quick joke
Nothing seems to be working this Christmas day
You know I have a life, that isn’t always happily empty inside
I love most days because I’m blissfully ignorant like that
I never realized life was not the same on the globe’s other end
I realize there are riots and poverty and starvation and such
But I’m quite comfortable with this lamb leg and potatoes I’ve newly tried
Hasselback, I think, joining my homemade rolls and spears of asparagus
That especially delicious homemade apple pie and banana bread
Had just one little taste before the family came out
You know my will is weak and my words most usually come out bleak
Ah, but I forgot the walnuts and it makes me quite upset
I greatly dislike banana bread sans nuts!
I’m sorry, did you say you think I’m absurd?
With my prose and words of baking finesse?
Makes sense to me though, despite you thinking I’m a blessed mess
Hello? Hello? Did you hang up again?
Oh bother, this holiday is becoming less than what was hoped
As I gather the full meaning and gather the full scope
Of my silly problem with empathy and another’s existence
I tend to have a very, very preoccupied life
A life preoccupied with me
Would you gander a problem child like me
Could verily and verily make you feel happy?
I venture a small note, and then an email
In hopes to break this ice floe that’s come floating across our bliss
Would you consider the fact I love you so much more than I can ever say?
In my words written and my attempts at conveying by only an emote or sticker on a screen
You know I love you more than anything… and yes, along with other things because
My life is a bit full, but never doubt the overflowing goodness
Knowing I have you in my presence
And you truly are my best of Christmas presents
So please, forgive my ADHD and my lack of sympathy and empathy
And all the other piteous of pities
Because I’m going to tell you just this once
I LOVE YOU, you silly and beautiful love of my life
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, and one day we really will spend it together
And I’ll bake you the most delicious banana bread with nuts
Cause it’s just not the same when every ingredient isn’t in place
Wouldn’t you agree?
The truly best thing that’s happened to me?
Here’s a great Christmas song to end the year. Please sing along. It’s the only way to listen to this song. My favorite song dedicated to my favorite girl.
I hope you have a fantastic New Year of searching and seeking amigos, and good night Grace! 🙂